How did depression/anxiety start for you?

How did you first realize you had depression anxityHow did depression/anxiety start for you?
Mine started near my dad dying when I was 9 yrs matured. Had many couseling sessions but,nil really worked.All the drugs make you butter so I finally made up my mind and take one and only Xanax for sleep.Night seems to be the worst.Its is so natural to abuse alcohol during these times because it relaxes you. Be scant and good luck.
For me I hold to say it be more like PTSD when I found my nan limp at just 10 years behind the times. Things have never be right since then.